I am sure that many of you who actually read this blog already know that I used to be quite a bit heavier than I am today. Right now, at the age of 27 and having had two children, I am about 40 lighter than I was in high school and my freshman year of college. I know it's not all about weight - it's about balance - but for me, weight certainly has a lot to do with my life in so many ways. It affects the way I view myself, the way others view me, the things that I can do or am willing to do, and so much more.
I have always been "overweight". I can remember getting a report back from our school nurse when I entered junior high that said I was 200 lbs. When I think about that, I can hardly believe I was that size at the age of 13! I struggled with it when I was young - I didn't want to be overweight and unhealthy. But I also didn't ever believe that I could do much about it. I remember crying when I was alone, wanting to be a "normal" size like other people, but I don't think I ever let on how much I was hurting. I just believed I was destined to be that way and nothing I did could change that, so why try?
It wasn't until after my freshman year of college that I saw such a huge need to lose weight and get into shape. This afternoon as I was looking over some writing I did that first year of college, I reflected on the two experiences that changed my life. The first was a one-mile hike up an incline in order to reach a castle in Germany. I wrote about how dreadful that hike was, and how embarrassed I was that the really nice athletic boys that everyone liked had to coach me up that hill. The second memory is similar; it was a few weeks later in Colorado when I was trying to hike up to Hanging Lake with my college singing team. A couple of those same guys were nice enough to lag behind in order to help me get to the top. I was mortified.
That was the beginning of the end. The end of the embarrassment, of having to shop in the Women's section, of having to look like an old lady when I was 19. But it was also just a beginning. I finally realized that it wasn't my genes that condemned me to this life of shame. It was myself.
And something that I didn't even know about then, but have been mulling over lately is that not only is it important to mine and my family's health to be careful about overindulgence and to keep up at least somewhat of an activity level; it is actually pleasing to God.
Consider these passages:
1 Cor. 6:12 NIV Everything is permissible for me, but not everything is beneficial. Everything is permissible for me, but I will not be mastered by anything. (And the love of food was definitely something that mastered me)
1 Cor. 6:19-20 ESV Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body.Or, as I was just reading last week in 1 Samuel, there is the example of Eli the priest. I have always wondered how his sons turned out to be wicked when Eli was so godly. Then I read it again; Eli was actually reprimanded by God for taking the "choicest meats" from the sacrifice and for overindulging. He was the one who taught his sons to be so selfish in the first place by his example - his sin of gluttony!
As I am learning more and more of God's desire for us to glorify Him in everything that we do, I am convinced that part of that is in taking care of our physical bodies. I remember hearing a man who was not a believer during his younger years tell of his disdain for his college president, who stood up front telling the students not to drink or smoke. He told these students that they must have control over their bodies and what they put into them, yet the president clearly had no control over the food that he put into his own body as he was at least a hundred pounds overweight. The students listening to him scoffed at his hypocrisy.
So am I opposed to eating some unhealthy foods? Am I saying that I think we should exercise, exercise, all the time? Absolutely not! After all, the key to everything in life is balance. Any one thing - whether that is food, alcohol, exercise, another person - can become an idol when its value is placed above God.
My goal in this post is simply to explain my view of health and our bodies at this point in my life. I adore a good creamy, cheesy dip as much as the next girl. But I also love that God gave us so many delicious fruits, veggies, and grains to enjoy as well! I want my testimony to be that of someone who loves God and who believes that her body is a temple - a vessel to be used for His honor and glory. And from where I stand today, I believe that part of that honor and glory comes when I take care of the vessel that He has given to me.